Reality check. I think I need to get back on track with reality and not just continue living in my own little carefree world as if I'm still in kindergarten. As quoted from OTH, it's time to get back into life and it all starts back with a simple question "What do you want?"

I want to believe that I've made the right choices doing what I'm doing now, that I'm walking on the right path and I still have time to fix the mistakes that I've made and cause so far.
I want to open up myself and let everyone knows what's eating inside me because I feel the guilt of keeping it inside me everyday and bring it with me where ever I go.
I want to be determine and make myself work really hard for the finals so that the repetition of last semester will not happened and I am going to see that it won't happened.

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I get a little teeny tiny tinge of bitterness when I see people partying so much. I swear I party so so so much lesser than people of my age does, which is kinda pathetic. Or should I say I never party at all since I came here? Well not like I club a lot back in msia, and that is why, when I came here, I made a lill promise to myself. That is to make use of the freedom and club as much as I want. I know some of you might think, this is so not true, but to me, I love all these kinda things but yet I can never do it. I mean what's a life of a teenager without the wild side?? This is something that I regret never getting around in doing it at all.
Sometimes blog hopping makes me think of how unattractive I am. Yes, I do blog hop once in a blue moon, but I don't stalk people let me make myself clear. I will stumble upon people that I don't know, but yet they do attract me in a way. Their confidence, their prettiness, their sense of dressing, their style. Bah just everything. Why do these people look so perfect? Is like they are so flawless. Call me naive or don't believe in myself, because I do admit I don't.
Little things I myself do sometimes amuse myself. The determination and satisfaction. Like for the past two days, I walked all the way to the train station, which is a half an hour walk :) It makes me feel that I've worked my muscles and burned my fats away.
I've resulted to Google Translate so that I can read Chinese websites. Sometimes the translation turns out real funny because I think it's translated directly and so the language its a lill out. I'm now currently addicted to this website here, you know that Taiwanese woman's talk show that is shown in Astro channel 31? Yea, that website has products that is shown on the show. Aih, my infatuation for beauty products has struck me once again.
Why are some people so charismatic? They can find anything to talk anytime, anywhere and with anyone. It's like they have a whole database of topics inserted into their brains. I am never considered as a person who people like to talk to because I always end up being quiet after a few general things that we can talk with people I just know. So, in conclusion, people perceived me as a person who is unattractive to talk to and a person who is plain boring, when in fact I'm not!

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